Today sweet hubby was off from work for the holiday and we were off to find something to do. My husband has a thing for fish, as in fish tanks and was on the hunt for a particular kind of fish, the
Jurapari Cichlid to be particular.
Stopped at one fish store, lots of other cool fish, but no Jurapari. Over to Petsmart to see what they have. We get in the store and I realize that all the water I've been drinking now has to vacate my body, so handing the twinks over to daddy, I head to the ladies room. Get back, all is well, I take the twinks into the cat room so they can look at kittens while daddy goes to do his business in the men's room. Little man decides to take off on me and runs out of the cat room. Okay, the room is enclosed in glass, Diva is sitting there talking to the kittens, so I run after Little man to bring him back to the cat room. I turn around after capturing my little track runner and there is this older man talking to my Diva...I walk up because Diva is walking out of the cat room calling Mommy! He smiles and says...oh sorry, thought she was lost.
I am a strong Christian woman, but you come between me and my little one's and your going to be dealing with a very mean Christian woman. I said, "no, she is not lost" reached down and took her hand and moved away. Processing this got put on hold because Daddy was back to look for his fish and then we bumped into a friend of ours.
Well, you know when you put something on the back burner of your mind, it can pop up at any time. I'm driving home after running a quick errand and it hits me, that man could have taken my little girl. There was an exit door right by the cat room, he could have grabbed her and been gone in a split second. I had an anxiety attack, right.there.in.the.car!
My questions is this to all of my Christian Titus 2 ladies, how do you ever release that fear of someone hurting your child? This is not a place I have been able to get too and I've been working on it for years. I honestly can sit here and say, if someone ever took my child, hurt my child, I would take my judgement out on them if ever given the opportunity! That is not the Christian way, I know this, but I cannot imagine ever letting anyone do anything to one of my little ones.
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